Have All Of Us Been Feeling This Way?

Hellooooo, people.

This is going to be one of those write-ups where I know what to write (finally, after what feels like ages) but don't have any idea about the ending. Most of my thoughts have been incomplete lately --some because I couldn't get an end to and some because escape through the mid-way seemed a better way than to reach the end. So, before it's too late, I gotta write something about whether I've got an end in my mind or not.

So, here we go. The topic I've on my mind right now is: Is it just me or are we 'all' stuck?

I don't know if this is happening to most of us or just me, but hear me out. See if you relate to this. 

Almost everyone around me seems either busy or upset. The busy doesn't mean they're working too hard but just that they ain't getting anything done. The upset doesn't mean something went down for them and they're upset but that they ain't in the right vibe 'cause a lot of things are just not going okay. 

Some people around me want to have just any one good thing to happen; some want to have just 'that' one thing to happen.

Some people around me want to get up and set it all right 'cause they've had enough; some want to just stop walking and let things happen 'cause they've had enough.

Some people around me know the bond we share is okay; some people are trying to believe that the bond we share is okay.

About me? I fit in almost every category; I've felt the former parts of the "or" sentence and the latter part as well, just depending on the person and the time.

relatable?

Are we really in very low moods but still asking how're you to each other? When we get "I'm okay" from someone, we try to believe it, even if our inner self whispers to us that they're not. And when we get an accurate answer about their feelings, we try to say all the right things but still end up feeling helpless because of those right things? "It will get better", "You're strong", "You'll be okay" and so on. Screw them, we ourselves don't believe in those things.

"Sometimes suffering is just suffering. It doesn't make you stronger. It doesn't build character. It only hurts."

~Kate Jacobs

This is the quote I've been feeling a lot lately. Most of the time, I don't start a write-up without having a good end or a positive note in my mind but I guess, it's not about being so very strong all the time? But about being vulnerable in front of each other so that the people who are just about to shatter know that it's okay. They're not the weak ones to shatter. They're just human beings with a heart that hurts, sometimes a bit too much. 

We cannot stay strong all the time. The choice that we have is if we choose to show our not-so-strong self to people or keep it hidden behind curtains.

I am making a choice here and that is- 

now you already know

showing my not-so-strong self here, in front of you; letting you know that it's okay to not have a positive note in your mind regarding the issues you witness and face yourself; letting you know that it's okay even if you want that one person back who is the reason you're at your low right now

it is okay, really

You're allowed to grieve, darling. Even when you ain't aware of the things you're grieving for. 

"If you spend enough time with anything, you start liking it, even sadness."

~Amish Tripathi, Raavan: Enemy Of Aryavarta

I GOT IT, okay, wait, I know how to-

I GOT A POSITIVE NOTE, damn

okay, no, just forget you saw that childlike excitement; you didn't see that, shh

That quote. That too, I've been feeling lately and I knew I wanted to say this to someone. So here, saying it to you. If it might have been a long time since you're in this undesirable feeling, maybe --just maybe-- you could start spending your time somewhere else? With something else? With someone else? 

that someone else could be you yourself too; depending on your feel

Maybe, what we all have to do is: Get ourselves out of the schedule that we've been following. Not all at once, but only a little. Let me give you a picture.

Imagine a thousand-pieces puzzle; the type which you place on cardboard and a whole picture comes up when all the pieces are arranged perfectly.

Now, what I'm saying is: don't change the whole puzzle but just a few pieces? 

Let's say if the puzzle is going to make a landscape --the typical one which we all have drawn in our drawing books; sun, river, hut, mountains and those two V's showing birds.

Instead of changing the landscape to the portrait of a lady, just remove a single mountain from the landscape?

back to the real thing, we were talking about

You don't have to move from some place to another or change your whole routine but you could maybe --just maybe-- include a half an hour in your routine where you listen to your type of music? or read something if reading relaxes you? or click random pictures if they make you feel good? or clean up your phone so that you could install a game or a movie or something without having to check the phone space you've left?

Just anything. Really. 

You just gotta spend enough time with something that actually works for you to make you feel better 'cause after all if you spend enough time with something, you start liking it.

So why not use the things we've been doing for so long in this feel for the right purposes? We gotta find some peace. Even if a bit, 'cause sometimes just a little good feel is enough for us to get up and fix things. Just a small good thing overpowers all the bad that's going on around us.

So, let's just find some peace and make sure we take care of the bonds we're in, okay, honey?

The people who love you and those who want your love; both want to see you okay and in the right feel.

So, make sure that you're going to find peace and make yourself better emotionally, mentally and physically for the ones who fall under both categories --love you and loved by you-- 'cause they're the most important ones in our life. 

Smileeeee, darling. 

Everything is going to be better.

i believe it too, this time; you do too? or maybe --just maybe-- just try to?

~Miss V